“What is my purpose?”
It’s a question that I hear often and that I have thought often myself. Once your first baby comes, you are transported into the world of motherhood. You start to look at life differently, your priorities shift, and you give more love than you ever thought possible to that tiny human being. Oftentimes more children follow, and you go back and forth between joyful moments of motherhood bliss and harrowing experiences of sheer survival.
Then one day you pause in front of the mirror, and aren’t quite sure you recognize the woman staring back at you. She looks pretty much the same, but with darker circles under her eyes and a little more pooch around her midsection, but the energy that she used to have for life seems to have been sucked from her. Her days are spent changing diapers, cleaning a house that gets messy again within 10 seconds, eating the leftovers that her children wouldn’t touch, and you wonder, “is this it?”
In your mind, the daily accomplishments don’t amount to much. You feel used up, unappreciated, and forgotten.
In an act of desperation, you cry out to God hoping to relieve some of the weight of worthlessness that you feel. The noises of your children seize in a moment of stunned silence, and in that silence you hear the words, “I love you.”
“…I see you in the moments that you think no one sees. I’m there as you change each diaper. I’m there when you soothe a boo-boo and shower it with kisses. I’m there in the middle of the night when you are exhausted and awake with a fussy baby. I’m there as your children bicker and fight and you instruct them in the virtue of kindness. I’m there in the meals that are picked over, unappreciated. I’m there as your child comes to you for the third time wanting a drink after he’s been put to bed.”
“In those moments I was naked, and you clothed me. I was sick, and you comforted me. I was ignorant and you instructed me. I was hungry, and you fed me. I was thirsty, and you gave me a drink. All of these things and more, you did to me.”
The voice continues, “…and I love you and want to do for you what you have done for your little ones. Will you come to me and let me love you?”
Your purpose, your identity is not about what you do. It’s about who God has already created you to be, and living that out to the best of your ability in order to glorify God with your life. It’s about God’s love for you. He has created you with a unique set of gifts, talents, and experiences – including the experience of motherhood.
Go to Him in daily prayer, with the same kind of love and humility that your children go to you, and let Him love you. Ask Him to show you how He wants you to live out your life and use those unique gifts He has given you. Read His word and learn from His example. Seek out others who can encourage you on this journey. The steps are simple, but can be challenging to live out in the day to day.
“I was always told that the secret of happiness lay in living one moment at a time and in thanking the Lord for everything He sends us.” – Gianna Molla
There is true purpose when we seek the Lord first in our lives, and respond to His love with thanksgiving. It is by seeking the Lord first, that we are able to trust Him with all that we hold dear – our children, our husband, our desires, and even our fears. It is through that trust that we can live our life one moment at a time, not naively going forward, but seeking God’s will in each decision that needs to be made. It is through that trust that we can then thank the Lord for whatever comes our way, good or bad, because the Lord has permitted it and we trust that He only does or permits what is best for His children.
Before this can happen. Before you can even respond to God’s love. You need to ask yourself one very important question:
Do you believe that you are worthy of God’s love?
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